
I'm thinking about God's love and compassion and acceptance.
I'm also thinking about how God can give his mercy and compassion, how he doesn't just decide to be lenient and be a nice guy and say, aw shucks, c'mon over here and give me a hug. Yes, he feels kindness and mercy towards me, but he still dished out what I deserved -- he just didn't dish it out on me, but punished himself (his son) in my place. And he did that without me asking and even when I hated him and was his enemy. And it hurt -- him.
Without him giving sin what it deserves, there isn't any mercy or compassion or forgiveness. And even then, after he takes his justice out on himself, I still don't get the benefit until I agree that I deserve what he took.
Why do I deserve to be punished by him? Let's see. He made me. I was all his idea and his making. I wasn't my own idea and I couldn't create myself. But after he thought of me and planned me out and then made me, I said, Hey thanks for the life! And I took it for myself. I was indifferent toward him. Actually worse -- I was actively hostile. I didn't want to think about any interference with my own ideas of life in general or with my own life. I was totally dead to any claim he had on me or any purpose he had for me. I did everything without him and made things and projects and relationships substitutes for him. And that doesn't even count my sins, all the bad stuff I did. Outside of that, I was a great guy, a nice guy rebel -- not an in-your-face sinner -- like a son who is polite and sounds respectful but has no intention of listening to dad.
So I'm thinking about how he offers forgiveness and compassion, but it's offered after a legal kind of thing where a judge said, well you know someone has to serve time for this before you get the pardon, and Jesus does the time and takes the rap and gets the chair and so since justice is maintained and the crime is payed for, THEN I can get the forgiveness and compassion -- if I agree and believe that I need it and that I get it only because of what Jesus has done in my place. So I love the end -- the compassion and my welcome into God's arms; and I love the compassion of Jesus' suffering for me that provided that compassionate welcome for me.
And I'm also thinking of when the religious leaders were talking about how Jesus "welcomes sinners and eats with them." And Jesus told two quick stories and a longer one. The first story was about a man with many sheep who lost one and went looking for it. The second was about a woman losing a coin and looking for it. The assumption of those two stories seems to be that that's the normal thing to do and of course anyone would look for something they lost, even if they had others like it. It belongs to them, they want to find it.
And Jesus mentions the rejoicing when the lost thing is found and then says that in the same way there is rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who...who what? Is found? It seems obvious that's what he means, but that's not what he says. He says, "over one sinner who repents." Apparently, God's finding the lost thing -- person -- is related to the person changing his mind. The finding and the repenting are kinda the same thing, almost interchangeable.
And then he goes right into story #3, the so-called Prodigal Son, who seems to say to dad, I wish you were dead so I could have my inheritance now, and then goes crazy and blows it and is miserable. Meanwhile, back at the ranch, his dad loves him so much he's always looking and waiting for him to return. But dad can't give compassion and mercy and acceptance until his son changes his mind and comes back.
And the guy does come to his senses and realizes he was foolish and wrong. But he doesn't stay in the pig pen and feel sorry for himself, or write a letter to his dad. No, he changes his mind -- repents -- and is not only willing to go back to dad on dad's terms...he actually turns around and goes back, with no expectation of having anything his way. THEN he receives the incredible, compassionate, and undeserved, welcome home.
So, I love the hug. But I don't want to forget why that hug can be given.