New Life'n

"I'd be a horrible God"

My daughter said that a few days ago. I'm still thinking about it.

"I'd be mad at everyone all the time," she said. "Especially at people like me."

My wife agreed. "I'd be shaking people by the shoulders right and left. You'd walk down the street and see people shaking."

But God doesn't seem to be mad at everyone and we don't see people shaking.

Is he just holding back? Maybe he's really mad inside and is gritting his teeth to keep from showing it.

Or maybe one of the things that makes him God is the ability to be completely right all the time and yet patiently tolerate people who seem so completely wrong. It takes strength to not do something that you have the power and right to do.

But why be tolerant? And why use your strength to not do what you could?

Love?

One time I was frustrated and carelessly broke some new juice glasses my wife had just bought. She didn't get mad. It was like she didn't even have to try to not be mad. It was weird. And very powerful.

It didn't make me want to break more juice glasses. "Hey I can get away with it!"

It made me want to love her back.

Your energy is a compass

Energy is like income, a checkbook, your IQ. You don't have the same as everyone else, and you're not supposed to.

And you have different energies available for different things.

When energy gets low you can experience stress. Then stress uses up more energy. Lower energy leads to more stress and less energy and more stress. It's a rotten little circle. 

God may give you less energy in some areas so that you won't focus on areas where he doesn't want you.

If you do mis-focus, you run out of gas to force you back to where you should be.

You know those times when you're going hard but you're not tired and you feel like you could go on forever?

Maybe that's your true north.