God knew what he was doing when he made me.
I have a personality, demeanor, strengths, and weaknesses. Strengths to use, and weaknesses for him to show himself strong thru (usually I forget that last one). Don’t fight it (except the sin). Don’t wish you were different (except the sin). If who you are is random, then yeah, go on a self-improvement program. But, if you think God is in control of the whole thing of you, and he made you on purpose for a reason, and you try to be someone else, who will be you?
I’m slow, not prolific. I have to think and concentrate to get anything done. I’m disorganized and messy. I speak when I should shut up and shut up when I should speak. I talk too loud and too long. And my head’s shaped like a light bulb.
Some parts of you are just the way you are; some parts are that way because you’re not trusting God. Know the difference. Trust him and change the untrusting parts, and embrace the parts he made on purpose. Just because I don’t like something about myself doesn’t mean it’s sin. Sometimes I worry more over those parts than the parts that are sin. Isn’t there enough of the sin to worry about without micro-managing the unique aspects of your personality? Maybe he made you that way on purpose.
