1. If you're afraid of people it will mess you up. And, you can rely on them too much, too; you can try all you want to get some man to listen to you, but only God can really give you justice.
2. Asked God to speak to me. Then, very subtle, like a whisper...
spend time in My Word
calm down
be careful with projects--do them but don't drag them out
don't dilly dalley
prove you trust Me by letting go and doing some other things--lighten up
don't be afraid to be bold
3. Am I more concerned with my personal ambitions (even if they're Godly) than I am with God's purpose and judgment being done?
4. As a born-again righteous person, I don't need the law to lead me; I have God's Spirit doing the leading.
5. The story of Lenny the Misfit...
Lenny scribbles his thoughts in journals and draws little pictures in the margins. Although no publisher is willing to publish these random thoughts, Bill Gates recently paid 30 million dollars for just one of Lenny's journals...
6. And a Nobel Prize winning scientist tells the tale of his revolutionary discovery involving synthetic DNA (gee, that sounds like I knew what I said; I don't). It's loooooong, and gets a little technical (actually, it's his Nobel Lecture when he won), but it captured me for 30 minutes. It reminded me that everybody has a story. Even when the subject is way out there the human part is the same for all of us...
Somehow, I thought, it had to be an illusion. Otherwise it would change DNA chemistry forever. Otherwise it would make me famous. It was too easy. Someone else would have done it and I would surely have heard of it. We would be doing it all the time. What was I failing to see? "Jennifer, wake up. I've thought of something incredible."
Later, on the climactic day when his experiment that would "change DNA chemisty forever" is successful, and he knows it will "make me famous," it doesn't matter nearly as much as what matters most to all of us...
In Berkeley it drizzles in the winter. Avocados ripen at odd times and the tree in Fred's front yard was wet and sagging from a load of fruit. I was sagging as I walked out to my little silver Honda Civic, which never failed to start. Neither Fred, empty Becks bottles, nor the sweet smell of the dawn of the age of PCR could replace Jenny. I was lonesome.