This is the last (for now) of the little series on Fuzzy Hope -- when you want something but don't know what it is. This is sort of a prequel to Scary Hope: Courage and a kick to hug hope, face fear, and get going.
Yes you can know
At the end of his earthly life Jesus said to his Father, "I brought you glory on earth by finishing the work you gave me to do."
He knew what the work was. It was specific, not vague. Not fuzzy. Course he was Jesus. But he was also a man on earth who knew his assignment.
Paul too. At the end of his life he said he had fought the good fight and finished the race. He knew what race he was running and he knew when it was done. Course he was Paul. But still, he was a man on earth who knew his assignment.
Paul also said that we all are God's workmanship, "created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them." As if there's an assignment.
Organic, fuzzy, or aha!
Maybe for some you can be walking in the good works prepared for you beforehand without really being aware of your assignment. It's just what you do, organically, as natural as your personality, and you can't really describe it.
For others maybe sometimes God wants you aware and wants you to cooperate with him. For you the journey to sync up with him is part of the assignment. For you, this journey, this safari, starts with fuzzy hope.
Fuzzy hope is the tension that causes you to seek, to squint, to be sensitive. The frustration and confusion is not bad or abnormal. Morning fog lifts slowly.
Or you may have your aha! moment. John Piper decided to preach while sick in his college infirmary. David McCullough decided to write "The Great Bridge" after a lunch conversation with men he was interviewing on another subject.
You can chill
Aha! or fuzzy, what if the safari to gain clarity is as important as the assignment itself? If assignments come from someone, then can't that someone reveal it how and when he wants?
What if the assigner is most interested in developing a personal relationship with the assignee, and keeping things fuzzy is the best way to do that, at least for now?
Delays in clarity may come from preparations happening that you're clueless of. If you knew the assignment you might run ahead. At the same time, frustration can be part of the preparation.
Jesus came to earth knowing his assignment. Aha!
Moses doubted his for forty years. Half of his life was a fuzzy hope safari.
Both got there. I'll bet you're something in between.